Evolving Via Xham (updated 3/23)
This is an update to my very first post written a couple of years ago. The second half has quite a lot of new content, in case you've read it before. If you haven't read this, I so hope you will find it both illuminating as well as stimulating, and please, please do share your thoughts and comments, we ALL benefit from seeing how normalized our lizard-brain cravings really are.
Cheers and stay slippery!
In retrospect, It's been very interesting as I've delved into the various things I do here on Xham... the voyeuring, the exploring, the vids, the chats, the camming with Xham friends.
It started probably like many if not most, just the exciting aspect of hopping onto the site to look at naked people fucking and sucking. It was stimulating, somewhat risky feeling, and I certainly wasn't going to sign up for anything, for goodness sake!! I was in awe of people posting and in heaven, as there was so much that turned me on and caused me to stroke to orgasm, that I could not believe. And it just kept coming, more and more content!!
After a while, I was bookmarking different "best of" pages for myself, to come back and play with myself to. I started creating sub-folders of favorites in my browser's bookmarks section.
I finally developed enough comfort that I was willing to sign up, so I had to create a name, and a fake email address to work with that. Even that process brought excitement and anticipation. What would happen once I was on the "inside" of Xham? Ultimately, I built up the courage to sign on. And the result? Simba45.
For a while, it was great, and then I realized that I could favorite videos in Xham... and then the sub-folders. Up until that time, no friending, nope, not going to cross that line!! ;-) Whenever I'd get a request, a hit of adrenaline would shoot through me, and I'd quickly delete the request, fearing the unknown, fearing being exposed.
My next toe-in-the-water was to subscribe and favorite the profiles I was most turned on by, thinking that they would be pleased that another fan had expressed appreciation. It took me a while to figure out that many of those that I favorited had thousands of friends and favorites, a bit of a revelation.
I was leaving comments on vids, on pix in galleries, and cumming every morning as I leafed through the amazing content that kept coming my way. So fucking cool! Some of the people who had posted content would respond with very courteous comments to my comments, often a gentle "Thank you for your comments" or "Glad it makes you happy", which turned me on, and so I started craving more interaction with them.
I finally decided to express my appreciation via the chat function here, and was absolutely stunned when answers came back. some positive, some negative, but all stimulating!
Then came the bold (haha!) step: Asking to friend. I've got no content, and no profile comments, nothing. And "Bam!", did I get slapped down for that! I realized how foolish it was for me to be so fearful of exposure, on a site where individuals, couples and groups all show themselves naked, fucking, sucking, cumming, rimming, on and on... and I'm nervous about posting something in my profile. So, that was next!
Finally, I realized I needed to get some content together. My wife was not interested in participating, and I'm not the kind to have an affair, so I'm solo. What to do? I watched the guys who were tributing, and fascinated about how many husbands wanted men to shoot pix and vids of their cocks cumming over a pic or vid of their wives. LOTS. I mean LOTS!!! So, I'm like, "Okay, how do I do that?" And that's what led me to the next level.
I did a few dick pics over my ipad that showed another's wife. Totally exciting. I posted, and shared via chat, and amazingly the husbands would start posting more pix in my chat. I'd jack off more and shoot the pix back. Super exciting!
I then realized that I have been making videos in my work using software, it would be simple to just take off my clothes, drop the camera down and do screensharing with me superimposed. Then the multi-screen idea. Then, the multi-camera idea.
I started coming up with sexually charged ideas that might work, first the tribs, and the resulting chatting (super exciting to me) then the multi-screens, then more friending, chatting, then the first camchat (I was REALLY nervous), but along the way there were plenty "what-if?"s that didn't that didn't get off the ground and are still quite stimulating in my mind.
Seeing every type (well most...) of sexual activity, I was finding that there were things that I had assumed I was not drawn to (or simply dismissive of), that actually were quite exciting. Beyond the "normal" attractions I had to all things feminine, couples fucking, groups fucking, blowjobs, etc., I found the new exposure to other activities were drawing me back as well. Double penetrations, cuckolding, bisex, and more, kept causing me erections and challenging my sense of sexuality.
I thought long and hard (no pun intended) about it all... Why did I get so turned on watching cumshots? Milky strands in slow motion flying through the air, bouncing off of breasts, nipples, mouths, pussies, mirrors. Why is it that in most double cock blowjobs, the minute the first guy cums, the second guy cums immediately? It's the same thing, my lizard brain sees that and puts my cock into high gear.
I started doing more videos (about the same time that Xhamster started throttling uploads... I have 12 vids in perpetual "review", that's another story), and just dropping the dropbox URL into friends' chat channels, and finding that exciting.
Then, the invites to cam with others. Scared me to death, initially! I very, very, very carefully explored how to do that and be anonymous. First a camchat website that I could control who came into my room. Then Skype (NOT a fan, really), then Whereby.com, which I think is brilliant for camchat! And soon, I tried camjacking with Oldcuck, and it was so exciting. I was watching his vids of his threesomes, and we just jacked away, and I came, and it was awesome.
My mind kept coming up with more interesting combinations and things to try, and sometimes they worked, and sometimes they didn't. Multi-cock camjack tributing, yeah, I did it first!
All along, I was most attracted to real amateurs, real couples, never really the perfect-bodied models, male and female, but really, just regular folks. I loved seeing the neighbors next door, as the wife was consumed with pleasure as the husband's friend's cock slid in and out of her well-lubed pussy and the hubby furiously pulled on his excited cock. I loved seeing close ups of hardened penises, precum glistening, cumming either explosivley, or even just dribbling, the visceral reaction of a pulsating pussy contracting in orgasm, or a bouncing cock spurting cum hands free, so fucking hot.
My faves folders started really expanding, and I found myself camjacking with more friends, and while we were usually watching pix and vids of their wives as I described how I would be fucklicking their sweet ladies while they slid their cocks in and out, it was obvious that they often wanted to explore what it felt like to imagine me playing with their cocks, and then rotating our positions so they would be underneath, licking their wife's clit and seeing my cock up close, inviting them to play with my shaft, or lick my helmet, and then helping-hand it back into her labia. (See my first post on fucklicking: https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10208976).
I've continued to crave and enjoy real couples, and always encouraging my Xham friends to open up, explore, expand, find those imaginary edges of sexual boundary, and explore right there, on the edge, to feel and experience the fantasy that feels risky, given the relative safety and anonymity that is afforded through this all. And my faves folders have expanded, with lots of newer pleasures archived, with the reality being that it's the bi-sex that gets me most excited. If you explore my faves folders (and I SO hope you do!!!), you'll find some amazing erotica, with the newer folders of handsome cocks, artistic cumshots, spontaneous and unscripted bi-sex that may cause your amygdalae to push some sweet precum out of the tip of your cock uncontrollably, while you are surreptitiously reading this on your laptop with family walking about the room. ;-).
And, let's face it, the elephant in the room... You're almost ALL men. Yeah, there are some women on Xham, (not talking about the new wave of pros, as well as the countless female-imposters), there are just a few, which is understandable, given how fucking awful far too many men-trolls can be, and I've been lucky to have just a handful of women Xhammers whom I chat with semi-regularly. Perhaps 3 total have engaged in watching me on cam as we talk about a fantasy. That's out of how-many-thousand friends I have on here? So, let's face it, there's a lot of closeted admiration of male genitalia that frankly, if you let it go and just enjoy it, you'd probably be a lot happier with your edging! ;-) (BTW, do see my faves folders starting with the works "Cock" and "Cumshots", pretty fucking awesome!!!
With all of this rambling, let me urge you to look through my posts, and look through my favorites folders, and PLEASE let me know what you find stimulating as well as mind-expanding, I just love to jack my cock to all of it!!
But it's all good fun!
So, with that little philosophical gem above, I don't forget that the reason I'm on Xham now, is to be excited and to give excitement in return. I love turning people on. It turns me on. Female or male. I love sensing a friend's adrenaline-fueled erection as they take their first selfie of their cock and post it to me, trying not to cum right away from sheer excitement. Every time I get a new Xham friend who I can tell is being stimulated by my urging them to try something they haven't, I get hard, immediately, and that's the best way in the world to wake up! I love seeing new messages, I love clicking links to friends' vids and pix of their wives, of their cocks. I love hearing husbands who are feeding me their vids of their wife, I love hearing them cum uncorollably as they anonymously watch my stroking on my cam.
And for those VERY FEW couples who have enjoyed camming with me as 3sums, my god, you are the BEST!!!
With that, post links your pussy and cock pix on my chat channel, I LOVE waking up to raw sex and flesh!!
Simba45
BTW, do read through my posts, I really want you to experience typing out your inner thoughts in the comments sections, it's quite exhilarating, you will find!
On Fucklicking:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10208976
On Double Penetration and Cumshots
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10223903
What I would do to you and your wife if you wanted to be a cuck:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10235760
How To Watch Camming Anonymously:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10253294
Xhamster study on sexual proclivities (VERY INTERESTING!!):
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10260287
How to webcam without a regular webcam:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10290046
Doing Group Tributes:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10315208
Love Big Clits?
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10362829
Understanding Whereby:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10368911
Big Breasted Matures Masturbating:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10388684
Big Breasted MMFs and MMMFs:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10389247
BBWs Cumming:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10389939
How I use Xham, chatting and camming:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10395318
Jacking to Puffy Nipples:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10398126
Share-wife pre-sex fondling:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10411937
Stroking to Kino/Cine/Theater vids:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10413447
Stewardesses:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10413448
Jerking to Double Vag Creampies
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10414223
My Favorite Fucklicking vids:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10423297
Cheers and stay slippery!
In retrospect, It's been very interesting as I've delved into the various things I do here on Xham... the voyeuring, the exploring, the vids, the chats, the camming with Xham friends.
It started probably like many if not most, just the exciting aspect of hopping onto the site to look at naked people fucking and sucking. It was stimulating, somewhat risky feeling, and I certainly wasn't going to sign up for anything, for goodness sake!! I was in awe of people posting and in heaven, as there was so much that turned me on and caused me to stroke to orgasm, that I could not believe. And it just kept coming, more and more content!!
After a while, I was bookmarking different "best of" pages for myself, to come back and play with myself to. I started creating sub-folders of favorites in my browser's bookmarks section.
I finally developed enough comfort that I was willing to sign up, so I had to create a name, and a fake email address to work with that. Even that process brought excitement and anticipation. What would happen once I was on the "inside" of Xham? Ultimately, I built up the courage to sign on. And the result? Simba45.
For a while, it was great, and then I realized that I could favorite videos in Xham... and then the sub-folders. Up until that time, no friending, nope, not going to cross that line!! ;-) Whenever I'd get a request, a hit of adrenaline would shoot through me, and I'd quickly delete the request, fearing the unknown, fearing being exposed.
My next toe-in-the-water was to subscribe and favorite the profiles I was most turned on by, thinking that they would be pleased that another fan had expressed appreciation. It took me a while to figure out that many of those that I favorited had thousands of friends and favorites, a bit of a revelation.
I was leaving comments on vids, on pix in galleries, and cumming every morning as I leafed through the amazing content that kept coming my way. So fucking cool! Some of the people who had posted content would respond with very courteous comments to my comments, often a gentle "Thank you for your comments" or "Glad it makes you happy", which turned me on, and so I started craving more interaction with them.
I finally decided to express my appreciation via the chat function here, and was absolutely stunned when answers came back. some positive, some negative, but all stimulating!
Then came the bold (haha!) step: Asking to friend. I've got no content, and no profile comments, nothing. And "Bam!", did I get slapped down for that! I realized how foolish it was for me to be so fearful of exposure, on a site where individuals, couples and groups all show themselves naked, fucking, sucking, cumming, rimming, on and on... and I'm nervous about posting something in my profile. So, that was next!
Finally, I realized I needed to get some content together. My wife was not interested in participating, and I'm not the kind to have an affair, so I'm solo. What to do? I watched the guys who were tributing, and fascinated about how many husbands wanted men to shoot pix and vids of their cocks cumming over a pic or vid of their wives. LOTS. I mean LOTS!!! So, I'm like, "Okay, how do I do that?" And that's what led me to the next level.
I did a few dick pics over my ipad that showed another's wife. Totally exciting. I posted, and shared via chat, and amazingly the husbands would start posting more pix in my chat. I'd jack off more and shoot the pix back. Super exciting!
I then realized that I have been making videos in my work using software, it would be simple to just take off my clothes, drop the camera down and do screensharing with me superimposed. Then the multi-screen idea. Then, the multi-camera idea.
I started coming up with sexually charged ideas that might work, first the tribs, and the resulting chatting (super exciting to me) then the multi-screens, then more friending, chatting, then the first camchat (I was REALLY nervous), but along the way there were plenty "what-if?"s that didn't that didn't get off the ground and are still quite stimulating in my mind.
Seeing every type (well most...) of sexual activity, I was finding that there were things that I had assumed I was not drawn to (or simply dismissive of), that actually were quite exciting. Beyond the "normal" attractions I had to all things feminine, couples fucking, groups fucking, blowjobs, etc., I found the new exposure to other activities were drawing me back as well. Double penetrations, cuckolding, bisex, and more, kept causing me erections and challenging my sense of sexuality.
I thought long and hard (no pun intended) about it all... Why did I get so turned on watching cumshots? Milky strands in slow motion flying through the air, bouncing off of breasts, nipples, mouths, pussies, mirrors. Why is it that in most double cock blowjobs, the minute the first guy cums, the second guy cums immediately? It's the same thing, my lizard brain sees that and puts my cock into high gear.
I started doing more videos (about the same time that Xhamster started throttling uploads... I have 12 vids in perpetual "review", that's another story), and just dropping the dropbox URL into friends' chat channels, and finding that exciting.
Then, the invites to cam with others. Scared me to death, initially! I very, very, very carefully explored how to do that and be anonymous. First a camchat website that I could control who came into my room. Then Skype (NOT a fan, really), then Whereby.com, which I think is brilliant for camchat! And soon, I tried camjacking with Oldcuck, and it was so exciting. I was watching his vids of his threesomes, and we just jacked away, and I came, and it was awesome.
My mind kept coming up with more interesting combinations and things to try, and sometimes they worked, and sometimes they didn't. Multi-cock camjack tributing, yeah, I did it first!
All along, I was most attracted to real amateurs, real couples, never really the perfect-bodied models, male and female, but really, just regular folks. I loved seeing the neighbors next door, as the wife was consumed with pleasure as the husband's friend's cock slid in and out of her well-lubed pussy and the hubby furiously pulled on his excited cock. I loved seeing close ups of hardened penises, precum glistening, cumming either explosivley, or even just dribbling, the visceral reaction of a pulsating pussy contracting in orgasm, or a bouncing cock spurting cum hands free, so fucking hot.
My faves folders started really expanding, and I found myself camjacking with more friends, and while we were usually watching pix and vids of their wives as I described how I would be fucklicking their sweet ladies while they slid their cocks in and out, it was obvious that they often wanted to explore what it felt like to imagine me playing with their cocks, and then rotating our positions so they would be underneath, licking their wife's clit and seeing my cock up close, inviting them to play with my shaft, or lick my helmet, and then helping-hand it back into her labia. (See my first post on fucklicking: https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10208976).
I've continued to crave and enjoy real couples, and always encouraging my Xham friends to open up, explore, expand, find those imaginary edges of sexual boundary, and explore right there, on the edge, to feel and experience the fantasy that feels risky, given the relative safety and anonymity that is afforded through this all. And my faves folders have expanded, with lots of newer pleasures archived, with the reality being that it's the bi-sex that gets me most excited. If you explore my faves folders (and I SO hope you do!!!), you'll find some amazing erotica, with the newer folders of handsome cocks, artistic cumshots, spontaneous and unscripted bi-sex that may cause your amygdalae to push some sweet precum out of the tip of your cock uncontrollably, while you are surreptitiously reading this on your laptop with family walking about the room. ;-).
And, let's face it, the elephant in the room... You're almost ALL men. Yeah, there are some women on Xham, (not talking about the new wave of pros, as well as the countless female-imposters), there are just a few, which is understandable, given how fucking awful far too many men-trolls can be, and I've been lucky to have just a handful of women Xhammers whom I chat with semi-regularly. Perhaps 3 total have engaged in watching me on cam as we talk about a fantasy. That's out of how-many-thousand friends I have on here? So, let's face it, there's a lot of closeted admiration of male genitalia that frankly, if you let it go and just enjoy it, you'd probably be a lot happier with your edging! ;-) (BTW, do see my faves folders starting with the works "Cock" and "Cumshots", pretty fucking awesome!!!
With all of this rambling, let me urge you to look through my posts, and look through my favorites folders, and PLEASE let me know what you find stimulating as well as mind-expanding, I just love to jack my cock to all of it!!
But it's all good fun!
So, with that little philosophical gem above, I don't forget that the reason I'm on Xham now, is to be excited and to give excitement in return. I love turning people on. It turns me on. Female or male. I love sensing a friend's adrenaline-fueled erection as they take their first selfie of their cock and post it to me, trying not to cum right away from sheer excitement. Every time I get a new Xham friend who I can tell is being stimulated by my urging them to try something they haven't, I get hard, immediately, and that's the best way in the world to wake up! I love seeing new messages, I love clicking links to friends' vids and pix of their wives, of their cocks. I love hearing husbands who are feeding me their vids of their wife, I love hearing them cum uncorollably as they anonymously watch my stroking on my cam.
And for those VERY FEW couples who have enjoyed camming with me as 3sums, my god, you are the BEST!!!
With that, post links your pussy and cock pix on my chat channel, I LOVE waking up to raw sex and flesh!!
Simba45
BTW, do read through my posts, I really want you to experience typing out your inner thoughts in the comments sections, it's quite exhilarating, you will find!
On Fucklicking:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10208976
On Double Penetration and Cumshots
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10223903
What I would do to you and your wife if you wanted to be a cuck:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10235760
How To Watch Camming Anonymously:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10253294
Xhamster study on sexual proclivities (VERY INTERESTING!!):
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10260287
How to webcam without a regular webcam:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10290046
Doing Group Tributes:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10315208
Love Big Clits?
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10362829
Understanding Whereby:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10368911
Big Breasted Matures Masturbating:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10388684
Big Breasted MMFs and MMMFs:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10389247
BBWs Cumming:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10389939
How I use Xham, chatting and camming:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10395318
Jacking to Puffy Nipples:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10398126
Share-wife pre-sex fondling:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10411937
Stroking to Kino/Cine/Theater vids:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10413447
Stewardesses:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10413448
Jerking to Double Vag Creampies
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10414223
My Favorite Fucklicking vids:
https://ru.xhamstervideo.net/posts/10423297
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J & J
